Still no snow. I'm mad about it too. It's supposed to snow? Or maybe not? The forecast is very conflicting, too. Now that I think about it, there is a lot of conflicting going on. I don't really understand why, but it seems to be the trend in my life. Lemme splain.

Kayaking vs. skiing - I can't make up my mind about which one I like better, and I don't really want to either. I want to like both. But I'm better at one than I am at the other, but I like the other one more than the other. I'm very descriptive.

Oasis vs. TFAB - Churches. I go to two different ones. I can't pick. I won't pick. I don't have to. They both are very interesting. I like the people. No, I love the people. And I like the way that both go. But seriously, I just don't...... whatever, they're conflicting, because there are two of the same-ish thing in my life. End of story.

Mt. Bachelor vs. Stevens Pass - Stevens Pass is my favorite. I learned to ski there. It's amazing. I know my way around like, the entire mountain. It's steep and beautiful and in Washington and I like it. Bachelor is 20 minutes from my house. I like that. Its bigger than Stevens Pass too. By alot. But I can't decide which one I like. Therefore I have stickers from both on my car, and I'm silly enough to think that it makes me a weird person. I'm skewed.

Facebook vs. MySpace - This isn't really part of my life, but its a neverending cultural battle. I like my Facebook. I like using Facebook. I really do not like MySpace, but I have one because I know people that don't use Facebook. It's stupid. There should just be one networking site, and the world would be better.

Tourism and Commercial Recreation vs. Outdoor and Experiential Education - I cant make up my mind about my major. I need to. Because I need to do it, but I can't figure it out. Blah. TCRM would get me places, places that I would like to get. And would give me more options when it comes to career choices, I could do just about anything with it. But OEE would be so much more fun, and I wouldnt have to take really any business classes. But I don't know if I would like business classes, so maybe I should try it? I don't know. I do not see myself taking people on month long wilderness trips. But I do see myself managing a ski school. I just dont know. This one is pretty mandatory too. I need to figure it out.

Living in a 1br vs living with a roommate - I just dont know what to do. I like having someone around sometimes, but I also like having a house to myself. I'm really picky about the person I live with. I moved 4 times since August. Finally I'm in a good place. But I just dont know what to do when I move out of here. Get another place with roomies? Or.... get a studio or one bedroom to myself? I guess it all just depends on how my life goes, and what pops up. But I should make up my mind.

See? All kinds of conflict. It's ridiculous.

Peace, love and a crazy brain,

There was quite bit of snow, and now it is mostly gone, and come back, but not so much as the first time. And I have discovered that I travel, a lot, and I do not like to do my schoolwork. I don't care about writing papers, unless I get to talk about being outside, and doing fun things, but I do like traveling, no matter how much driving is involved, as long as there is something fun on the other end. I want to travel the entire world, skiing and kayaking and meeting people, and hopefully making some kind of positive impact while I'm doing so. I think I'm in the right major for that, but I'm not really sure. Maybe?

I like to eat strange things when I travel too, just to make life more interesting. I don't like being very experimental in my own kitchen, by myself. But when there are people over, or I am in someone else's house, I love to cook things, and try things that I have not before. I just had a beer float, not a root beer one, a real beer one. Tillamook Vanilla Bean and Deschutes Black Butte Porter. It was heaven in a glass. I was impressed that I actually tried it. Very impressed that it actually tasted good.

I don't like doing things that involve repetition. I have terrible ADD. I can not sit still for very long, or in the same position. It's very odd for me to stay sitting in the same position for more than like... five minutes. I can't help it, its just me. And I always have to be doing two things at once. Like right now, its very hard for me to concentrate on just writing. I'm sitting next to someone, that helps. Class is especially hard to deal with, I usually have to be taking notes, or playing with my computer in order to actually hear what the professor is saying. I think that I have become a really fast, good typer... due to too much playing with the computer. And taking notes on it too. Interesting.

I want the snow to come back, right now, and lots of it too. I miss skiing. I need some deep white fresh powder, so I can just let go of everything that is bugging me. Love, food, adventures, everything. It all seems to go away when I'm skiing, as long as I can keep my mind from wandering. Possibly thats why I like the mountains so much. Yeah. That's probably why.

Peace, love and powder snow, please.

It's October. And there is already snow in the mountains. I am so excited about this place that I have chosen to call home. Bend is definitely a gorgeous town, and the mountains are huge. I'm so incredibly stoked for winter. I've been thinking lately about what I am going to do with my life, and I've noticed something. I get way more excited about winter time, and skiing, and all that, than I do about whitewater season. I don't like that. But I don't know how to fix it. I think that I am scared of drowning. But then why am I such a fish? It really never makes much sense. I sold my kayak, and bought skis with the money, I think that not having a kayak for a while might help my head issues. Because, that's why I don't like kayaking, most of the time.

Just peace and love today.

I love Oregon. I love the Northwest. I love the mountains, and the rivers, and the snow, and the rain, and the sunshine, and the ocean is fabulous. I love driving around this beautiful place, camping, kayaking, skiing and general galavanting is always good too. I am so amazed, every time I visit a new place. The world is truly rad. Yep, I have a very limited travel repertoire, but it's slowly growing.

Ran the McKenzie river today, near Eugene. It's relatively mellow whitewater, but I'm learning lately that I really just enjoy being on the river, outside. The McKenzie is a very green river, tons of trees on the bank, and lots of gorgeous houses. There are not many spots where you can see the highway that runs along the bank, which is always nice. I love roadside rivers where you can forget that you are roadside, very nice.

Today's trip inspired this blog. I feel the need to document my adventures. The world was made to enjoy, God did a fantastic job, and that does not even come close to accuracy. I'm positive that He didn't intend for us to be inside all the time, outside is too much fun. And seriously, you can't really get a sense of His creativity from your living room.

So here's to running around outside, seeing new things, read and running new rivers, getting dirty, movie worthy ski crashes and being more comfortable in a sleeping bag and a tent than I am in my own bed. I hope there will be inspiration, and humor in the next while, and I promise to try to keep updating on a regular basis, because really, there's nothing I will do for fun that wont work for this blog, which is why I created it.

Peace, love & whitewater.