October 19, 2010

My mind is wandering. I have so many big ideas, and it seems nearly impossible to make any of them a reality. But, if it was easy, would it be as fun? I want to travel, everywhere. I told my Dad the other day, that I want to ski in as many countries as possible. He laughed at me. Sometimes, I think my parents believe in me less than anyone. Shouldn't that be the other way around? I don't know. I'll have to prove them wrong, I guess.
"For a slightly possible goal, sometimes we sell out our soul. Can't help that, errrbody done felt that. Just ask your favorite artists whose heart has turned to pitch black. Ask some of these stars where they lost they sense of self at. Strictly being puppets in public is a setback. Everybody's a dancer, I don't view you no differently, so dance for me."
There are few lyrics that I've fell in love with more than this one. For some reason, I never ever get sick of the Cunninlynguists. They're brilliant. I have to constantly remind myself that, no matter what, it's better to be free, and to be myself, than to be monetarily comfortable. I don't think I'll ever be 'rich' in my life, and even though that makes me slightly worthless in American society, I feel like I own the world sometimes. I've written about it before, but I feel so incredibly blessed to live in the place that I do, and play as much as I do. My life is incredible, and I have so many ideas about what I want to do with it. I feel like I've been given some serious wanderlust, and I need to make use of it while I can. A year ago, all I wanted to do was find a place that I loved, and stay put. But now, I'm starting to realize that I need to see things in my life. I want to ski in Austria, Japan, Colorado, Chile, India, Dubai. I want to eat in Thailand, France, Italy, NYC, Morocco and Brazil. I want to live in a Winnebago for a year, traveling around the States to play. I want to take pictures. I want to collect things that you might find at World Market, on my own. I want to fill a personally remodeled home with things that remind me of my adventures. I want to buy all organic and local, and grow my own veggies.

Why do I always get so sidetracked?

Peace, love, and an application to Edelweiss Lodge in Germany,